1. |
Everything [RSD]
00:52
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Everything... Everything to me
You meant everything... everything...
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2. |
Disillusioned [RSD]
03:41
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I am the scarred
But I hold the knife
I see a man I hate inside
I was her dream
But somehow it changed
Now in her eyes it was all a lie
Through my eyes the world outside is an illusion
Through my eyes you'll see inside my destitution
Through my eyes you're given rise to absolution
Through my eyes you'll see inside my disillusion
I've had it all
Yeah, I've had it made
Now I'm the one who is ashamed
I held her heart
It was in my hands
Now in her eyes it was all a lie
To hold it all in the palm of my hand
Just to realize that I don't understand
The way things are and the way they seem:
A collision of views that don't agree
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3. |
Burden [RSD]
03:02
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"Because she doesn't love you!"
Every time I step into the light your shadow follows me
Every time I try to move on, your memory beckons me
I've loved you since I met you - It's now a fatal flaw
Holding onto what is futile has been my only thought
If I could, I'd leave this behind
I've carried this pain far too long
Maybe I've had all I can
Maybe I am too weak
Maybe your ghost still haunts me
When will I finally have peace?
I'd die to reconcile this void that I possess
This hurt that bears your name is all that I have left
If I could, I'd leave this behind
I've carried this pain far too long
If I could, I'd love to change your mind
But I've been dead to you far too long
©1999-2020 AD Windblown Music, ASCAP. All Rights Reserved.
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4. |
Dismantle [RSD]
04:04
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Preparing myself for the tragedy at hand
Breaking new ground to find an all-time low
Hearing the sound of the empty ringing
And opening wide for the pain, so gently
Welcome to my failure
Welcome to my pain
It's an endless cycle
I will face again
It's just another broken heart
It's just another broken dream
Swallowing grief envelopes me softly
All alone, this solace is my sentence
Confusing the dream with the lie, so simply
I smothered my love with the best of intentions
©1998-2020 AD Windblown Music, ASCAP. All Rights Reserved.
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5. |
Loss [RSD]
06:10
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One A.M. and here I am again
Has it been two years too long?
One A.M. and the tears are streaming... down your cheek
Feels like yesterday
Let your memory fade away
I would rather be empty
Another day and I'm left behind again
Each new change is marked by deeper wounds
I've tried so hard to let you go and I -
I can't believe that it's over
I don't want to think it's over
Let the memories fall down on my face
They're all I have now
Let the regret fulfill destiny
Times have changed [people change]
But not the way I feel for you
Each new step just takes me further away
To reach for you would break your wish and I -
I miss you
I can't believe you're gone
Let the memories fall down on my face
They're all I have now
Let the regret fulfill destiny
And take you from me
Let your memory fade... away
©1999-2020 AD Windblown Music, ASCAP. All Rights Reserved.
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6. |
Break [RSD]
04:06
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I remember all these dreams unsung
And how they've met with destruction
And the lessons that we've learned
Have left these lines so blurred
Will you know me even after our demise?
Will you speak to me or stare through distant eyes?
Was it all it was meant to be?
Was it all you'd hoped for?
Was it all it was meant to be?
'Cause I still long for -
I continue but it's not the same
I'm playing but the rules have changed
It's a test I know I have to pass
If I want to live to have a chance
Will you know me even after our demise?
Will you speak to me or stare through distant eyes?
Was it all it was meant to be?
Was it all you'd hoped for?
Was it all it was meant to be?
Or do you long for -
How do you take the place of love?
Why do I struggle to survive?
Where do I move on from this point?
Or could I retake what was mine?
Will you hate me after all that we've been through?
And would you hate me if you knew I missed you?
I still long for -
©1999-2020 AD Windblown Music, ASCAP. All Rights Reserved.
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7. |
Unsettled [RSD]
05:03
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Hanging onto all the lies you swore to me in confidence
And finding how my anger's building in my consciousness
Looking down a path I wish I didn't have to take
And taking on a change I wish I didn't have to make
Don't try to tell me this has been our own decisive end
I see I put my trust in someone who's abandoned it
Learning fast the lesson of your shallow treachery
Words alone cannot express the way you've injured me
I couldn't see it before
There's no way I could win
It all came crashing down
And brought us to an end
You may never care how this has changed me
I have nothing left inside for you...
Breathing deep a sigh that now I know I have to start again
Still dressing up the wounds you couldn't care you've left me with
I realize I'm on the edge of self-discovery
And finding out the one I loved is not the one for me
I never questioned once the value of companionship
But now I've learned the price of love and you forsaking it
Learning fast the lesson of your shallow treachery
Words alone cannot express the way you've injured me
I couldn't see it before
There's no way I could win
It all came crashing down
And brought us to an end
You may never care how this has changed me
I have nothing left inside for you
Still these thoughts are better left unsettled
Redressing these wounds I bled for you
You might never care
And I have nothing left
You might never care how I bled for you
©1996-2020 AD Windblown Music, ASCAP. All Rights Reserved.
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8. |
Sweet Remorse [RSD]
03:57
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"I am the memory of your fear..."
Sweet remorse you speak to me
Uncover memories I buried deep
You twist the thorn while whispering sweet
Oh, the regret engulfs me
Sweet remorse you speak to me
Exposing all my selfish greed
Bittersweet apologies
Can't remove this shame from me
I am the memory of your fear [drawing close and dear]
I am the dream that you betrayed [the lost love that you crave]
Sweet remorse you speak to me
Uncover memories I buried deep
You twist the thorn while whispering sweet
Oh, the regret engulfs me
Sweet remorse you speak to me
Of all the things I used to be
So I can't run from me -
I'll learn to rise from this defeat
©1998-2020 AD Windblown Music, ASCAP. All Rights Reserved.
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9. |
Sad Goodbye [RSD]
04:39
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Why does this hurt so bad?
Just turn away
How much more time will pass
Before your memory fades?
From me
You know that I always loved you
Not just words I'd say
And here we lay broken in two
It's the price that we pay
You slipped away
It's just a sad goodbye
A last kiss in the moonlight
The final touch of our tow lives
I died when you left me behind
It's just a sad goodbye
Something that I'd always known:
The risk I'd take
Time had shown we'd grown close
But you couldn't keep me that way...
You couldn't keep me that way
Your memory still lingers in my lonely heart
Your voice I still hear in my soul
And this distance - Oh this distance has left me so -
Cold
So how do I say what I feel?
I can't explain
Without you, nothing seems real -
Except for this pain
Words fall like rain...
©1996-2020 AD Windblown Music, ASCAP. All Rights Reserved.
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10. |
DEADLETTER [RSD]
05:11
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My heart gets lonely for you... endless miles away
And this distance we can't explain grows with every day
Words fall like the rain on the page
When will you leave my love behind? [she said]
When will you leave my love to die?
Your eyes mirror the days gone by
Tears you couldn't cry
And the memories you once held so tight haven't burned quite as bright
Tears fall from my heart...
Staring out the window at your life
Reflecting the storm that moves inside
My bleeding heart forgets all it's pain
Washed away - washed away in your "reign"
What was now has been left behind -
A break so hard it broke my pride
And this distance has grown so wide that
I'll never cross it in time
New meaning I find
When will you leave my love behind? [she said]
When will you leave my love to die?
Staring out the window at my life
Reflecting the pain that moves inside
My bleeding heart gave out with your last line
And I'd give anything to drown this pain -
This pain you left behind
I'd give anything to drown this pain
I'd give anything to drown this pain
I'd give anything to drown this pain
My bleeding heart gave out with your last line
©1995-2020 AD Windblown Music, ASCAP. All Rights Reserved.
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11. |
Sometimes [RSD]
04:05
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Sometimes I still think of you
Sometimes I still ache for you
Sometimes I fall into regret
Sometimes I fall...
Sometimes I'm wishing for yesterday
Sometimes I wish to God you'd fade away
Sometimes I fall into regret
Sometimes I fall...
Broken hearts leave such pretty scars
Don't you think, my dear?
Time has failed to heal these wounds
That much is clear
Empty words - what might have been
Lost with innocence
We've become so jaded now...
I'll drink to that
Sometimes I smile at your memory
And Sometimes my failure eats at me
Broken hearts leave such pretty scars
Don't you think, my dear?
Time has failed to heal these wounds
That much is clear
Empty words - what might have been
Lost with innocence
We've become so jaded now...
Let's drink to that
Broken hearts leave such pretty scars...
©1998-2020 AD Windblown Music, ASCAP. All Rights Reserved.
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12. |
Empathy [RSD]
06:15
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This is why it falls apart
This is why you walked away
I understand now how you must have felt
With all the change and futility
It isn't easy - and no one said it would be
Watching you live without me
Welcome to my failure
Welcome to my pain
I want you to feel what I feel
I wish you could see what I've become
I wish you weren't so happy without me
Without me... Without you...
This is why it falls apart
It's just a lack of understanding
And this means everything to me
I'm dying to find some way to reach inside of you
And leave a mark of empathy
Welcome to the season
Welcome to the change
I've been longing for your - your understanding
This is why it falls apart
This is why you walked away
This is why it falls apart
And this means everything
No! -
You mean everything to me
Everything... Everything to me
I understand now how you must have felt
With all the change and futility
It isn't easy - and no one said it would be
Watching you live...
Without me
©2000-2020 AD Windblown Music, ASCAP. All Rights Reserved.
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13. |
When It Rains [RSD]
04:34
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Dark clouds in my head
My sorrows 'been following me round and round
Feels like I've been dead
Life sometimes can bring me down and down
Sometimes I can't eat, can't sleep, can't breathe
Sometimes I'm just desperate to believe
Sometimes I don't even know where I'm going -
When It Rains... It pours
One thing or another
One extreme or the other
Pictures have faded
My memory just ain't what it used to be
How did things get so jaded -
Never quite seeming to agree
Sometimes I can't eat, can't sleep, can't breathe
Sometimes I'm just desperate to believe
Sometimes I don't even know where I'm going -
When It Rains... It pours
One thing or another
One extreme or the other
Argument to the grind
So much seems so unnecessary
For so long I've been blind
Can't you hear me?
I want to see
Sometimes it sinks right down in me
Sometimes it gets the best of me
But this time I know I believe
When It Rains... It pours
One thing or another
One extreme or the other
No middle ground
©1996-2020 AD Windblown Music, ASCAP. All Rights Reserved.
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14. |
Holding It In [RSD]
04:12
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I think it's time I lived up to your expectations
And I think it's time you realized just where your real place is
And I think you know I know the reasons for your leaving
And I think you know it's time to face these bottled feelings
I burn the place where you will hide
[So you can't hide there anymore]
You are the ghost I hold inside
[And I can't hold you anymore]
I think you like to stretch the boundaries of my limitations
But I know that what you'll find will test the limits of your patience
I resent losing you
I burn the place where you will hide
[So you can't hide there anymore]
You are the ghost I hold inside
[And I can't hold you anymore]
I burn the place that you will -
You are the ghost that I will -
I am the pain that burns in you...
I think the stage is set
I know you'll come out swingin'
But you have no idea how long this pain's been feeding
And your anger swells at me for stepping back into your life
I only wanted to be with you for the rest of mine
I resent losing you
I burn the place where you will hide
[So you can't hide there anymore]
You are the ghost I hold inside
[And I can't hold you anymore]
I burn the place that you will -
You are the ghost that I will -
I am the pain that burns in you
[I am! I am!]
'Cause I died that night when I left
And I'd have given anything to have you back
This is the pain I hold inside:
You don't love me anymore
©1998-2020 AD Windblown Music, ASCAP. All Rights Reserved.
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15. |
So Have i [RSD]
04:04
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Love... as deep as the oceans
Drowned... in lies of devotion
You've taken all I had to give
Now my heart lies down below
You've taken all I held once dear
And left me but to hope
And I wonder...
Let it fade
Let it die
With the coming season it's left behind
As Autumn steals the Summer sky
As the leaves have changed
So have i
Warmth... in the arms of your embrace
Lost... in the chill that's taken your place
The smile that once held my gaze
Has become my memory's curse
And the sea that once spilled devotion
Now leaves me but to thirst
Still I wonder...
©1996-2020 AD Windblown Music, ASCAP. All Rights Reserved.
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Everything
She meant everything... everything to me
She's not what she seems...
To the heart of New York
I chased my restless heart
She was like an angel
And I felt so alive
Little did I know
Her love would leave me cold
And when she left me
I wished that I could die
Time doesn't heal all wounds
Everything
She meant everything... everything to me
She's not what she seems...
She's dead to me
©2000-2020 AD Windblown Music, ASCAP. All Rights Reserved.
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Autumn's Descent Indianapolis, Indiana
Asche Relesser founded AUTUMN’S DESCENT in 1995 as a hard rock project with industrial and gothic overtones. AUTUMN'S
DESCENT has had several album and EP releases and, with a rotating lineup, played club & college scenes and festivals all over the US.
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